So;
where to begin.. :| :(
Been psyched bout Engage i suppose heh till i realised i hadnt changed .. still being an ass in some regards.. always related to the female gender :| yet i "pride" myself on my ethics is amazing how much they dont' exist in some cases.
Remebering everything i have done to ppl not even considering my last relationship snaps me down to nojthing so fast its amazing im still alive with all my blood pumping so hard. angry only @ myself uggh
So;
I know very few people read this.. I guess this is for the person that I am still thinking about alot..
Whom which isn't talking to me or contacting me. heh i deserve it thats for sure.
I have been thinking alot lately, though uni wokr is chewing up my time/clock everyday I seem to remember things, times/days with Hurrem and it still hurts so bad and cuts me deep.
Not because of anything she did to me or anything.. all bad on my end.
So hopefully today I will have the engery to do stuff.. due to me not sleeping last night.. starting to realise that for some stupid reason @ 21 my body can't handle it.. that hurts.
So I guess im just winging and whining..
I miss her lovely big smile, her open arms at the end of a day.. her smile and knowing that she is next to you when you wake up and go to bed.. sure there was bad moments and bad times.. thats normal in relationship.
If you don't talk them out then.. they just build up - something i dind't do often enough.. or not at all
My stupid laptop's screensaver keeps on flicking through the old photo's of us. Every photo I see how happy we were and how much we enjoed ourselves.. then i look at my life now.
Balanced delicately on a bunch of threas to scared/worried that I will rock the boat or fall so i don't do much else.
I thought i was moving ahead in my walk with Christ.. i have somewhat interrupted that/delayed it to the point i am confused again.
Anywho
My brain spew.. or some of it
Andrew
So;
These last few days I have been busy fixing up some scripts,backup systems and getting my life happy and in order :)
Picking up a shiney new server tonight hopefully :) I am so excited i might pee heh.
I confirmed my decision to turn back to Christ Jesus many times these last few days as He has shown me in so many wonderful ways in my life.
Installed/playing with SubSonic at the moment as a replacement for Snackamp/remote stream/viewer works wonderfully. Took a few hours to sync/search everything but its working nicely now :)
Looking at purchasing some more kitchen/useful stuff in the future but its on the to do list.
Working this weekend :( but hey, can't complain considering my lack of work recently and what I am working on
Peace.
Andrew
Hey;
So lately been kinda busy with my thoughts and my personal life dealing wiht things that have comeup.. finally gotten around to cleaning my van :D heh so much cleaner now;
Anywho , finally ftp issues are fixed I hope.. so many open ports :\
migrating things over to varnish cache system which is speeding sites up and also the bandwidth uses of those sites.
Hopefully to see, our current backup system will be overhauled and our bandwidth useage reduced. :D
More to come later :)
Andrew
So;
I have been busy again :) I finally was able to map out my nagios network, and setup sms/email alerts :D yay :D now I will know within 5mins or so If something dies/gets overloaded :) Anywho;
Today my plan was to clean my van up however that hasn't happed to well heh, most of my time was taking up getting new brakes for my car/installing them.
I then proceeded to my mates place and then to a carwash via an atm hunt... So below (i hope) are photos of my clean lovely car :) not only on the outside is it clean but this time on the inside to :D awesome stuff :) heh
More to come later :)
Andrew 
