Engage, life :|

Posted by Andrew on September 1, 2008 under Uncategorized |

So;

Its a monday again… and though after all i have been through this last week and weekend.. i feel like crashing down and crying..eh i don’t care to be called emo.. tbh i wish i could cry more easily and stop myself from stopping myself cry.. so.. last week.. around Tuesday.. i found out that it was the engage conference on the weekend…, so i was like ok… hmmm gf freaked out a little, understablly i was a little worried myself and hoping that it would be a bit of a break. On top of that.. i got my rego papers and had ot get the car rego’d… so on Thursday i dropped it off for rego.. and i couldn’t see my love because i had to pick up my car early… so i picked it up thinknig ok maybe $500… turned out i needed @ least 1 new tire, and maybe a new steering rack (1000-2000) just to past rego.. i was like :| then i went all weird and retarded on msn with gf and made stuff messy in my head again not thinking to straight…

Then as i was heading up to the conference on Friday night… driving up myself due to work and so forth.. i thought ok ill get tires done at least… normally $120/tire.. for cheapies… luckly i got them cheap and good tires for $90/tire.. that was the good part of the day.. then i got home.. had to pack the bag… then i drove off to see the Gf before i left for the conferance..

To be honest.. i was crapping myself that in now 4 months that we have gone out.. we have never had a weekend apart… I didn’t know how she would take it… and i didn’t know how i would take it.. i knew that the group i was going with.. rather the few main ppl there looked down on my relationship harsly judging.. only one of them a mate of mine had any right to..but those… after the massivel ong drve.. me stocking up on v i arrived.l. i found out that the main reason  why i was going.. to see old mates from church.. that 2 of them were leaving Sat night… when saturday came around, for the night session i was tired and sleepy.. luckily we had a seat at the back so i could play with my iphone and sleep a little… the talk was boring and usless to my brain… so later that night my mates packed.. i almost left with them if it wasn’t for my other mates there… we had a chat about someone.. and were sorta bagsin’ him out a bit.. but to be fair.. he has been fair ly harsh and upsetting to alot of people in the church and doesn’t know how to do things or aproach them the right way… Sunday came around… i was missing my lady, glad that she went out a bit and had fun on Saturday :).. Sunday was different.. Mark really had me captivated with what he had to say.. kept on refering to Sheep and Shepards… and how they look after  their flock and that the wolves aren’t just wolve’s that sometimes they are sheep… and sometimes they become sheep.. And Don, also had me captivated.. to be honest i can’t remember what about though i did take notes on the iphone.. I was glad to get home and see my lady even though i flailed quite a bit… it was still an ok night.. but like tonight.. i am buggered and completetly tired… tonight/today was 4 months today.. we went out after work to the city.. had a beatiful dinner at City Extra and then wandered around the harbour… i love her dearly i love you Hurrem…

Anyway all before i get all soppy and sappy good night

Andrew